A Lost Friend
I sit down after a hard day
Cursing the unfairness of life
Yearning to share the knot of pain
But find no one around except you
Why, my friend, you never leave me?
Even at my worst times, when I hit you with all force
When I blame you and your ways
For all the sorrows which I experience every day
Knowing fully that you have no role to play
Except hugging me and cracking those silly jokes
Reminding me of better times that we had
When we used to share our food, secrets and life with each other
Why do you have to remain the same even now
When our lives are no more like those days
When we live thousands of miles apart
In our separate cocoons
Days, months, even years go by
Without us exchanging laughter
And shared moments of joy
But whenever I sink deep down in misery
I imagine you beside me
And talk to you non stop
Saying what you would have said
How you would have made me laugh even while crying
I become you and console myself
I blame you and hug you at the same time
I tell myself that I have nothing to fear
Since you are again by my side
Every such time, I think of dialling your number
So that the imagination becomes real
But I get scared to think
What if you no longer care?
What if you are more unhappy?
What if you are now cold?
And thus, the moment passes
I again lose you, my friend.
All of us have gathered at least a few good friends in our lives. We part ways with some and lose some of them to passage of time. We never remember them in our good times, but whenever we are sad, we miss those old friends. That is the time when we should reach out to connect once again, but we don’t. And life goes on.
I wrote about one such friend I lost and it is being published in "Chicken Soup for Indian Friend’s Soul" by Westland. It has been edited by popular mamma & blogger Baisali Chatterji Dutt and contains stories by many eminent bloggers and authors. It will be officially launched on Friendship Day i.e. August 2011, but you may pre-order it now from Flipkart or Crossword.